Over the last couple of weeks I’ve been busier than usual. I usually have an easy schedule in which I have plenty of time to come home at the end of my day, hang out for awhile, go to the gym, meet friends for coffee, or simply come home and take a nap! But my days really haven’t been that way lately. In fact, I haven’t even been to the gym in about two weeks!
The other day as I was complaining to my daughter about being tired, I said that I needed a break, to which she responded by saying, “Your whole life is a break!” We laughed, because that’s pretty much true. I have set it up to be exactly this way. I love this particular time in my life. I’ve already raised my daughter and am not currently in a serious relationship, so all my time is my own. I enjoy doing only what I want to do and when I want to do it.
However, when I’m not remembering how I’ve set up my life to be (for this point in time), I often think about the areas of my life that are not as I want them to be. I think about who’s not doing what I want them to do or what’s not happening as I think it should be happening. But when I really look at my life and lifestyle as I’ve now set it up, I realize that I really do love it the way it is. This doesn’t mean I will want it exactly this way forever. But I know when I want it to be different I can set it up another way. After all, I do have plenty of options and opportunities.
In a movie I went with my sister to see today, there was a character who was very much enjoying her experience. She simply followed what made her happy. But there came a point in her experience when she started thinking about what she wanted. She stopped following her feelings and started thinking about it, which then made her experience no longer happy to her.
I am reminded of Joseph Campbell’s quote, “Follow your bliss.”
In a conversation with my sister after our movie today, I recalled much of what I’m writing about tonight. I talked about how much I love my life as it is. I talked about how I’ve set up my life to be easy, stress-free, worry-free and very flexible. I talked about how I do whatever I want and whenever I want to do it. I talked about how I simply follow that which makes me happy.
So, this long weekend I have a good opportunity to get things back to how I want them to be. Since I can do whatever, I decided to work a bit extra, go dancing with my friends, go to the movies with my sister, cancel plans to attend a barbeque I was invited to, and to sleep in on Sunday! THIS is how I want it.
Yes, there will always be more that I want out of life. I will always strive for more of this or that, but as my life is today, I love it and I’m grateful.
Tomorrow after sleeping in, because I want to, I will probably just spend the day with myself… maybe lie around for awhile, get my car washed, go to the bookstore, get back to the gym and/or have something special for dinner… We’ll see!
What a great life… just the way I want it!
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