Deliberate and stress-free

This morning started out just as I wanted... lied around until I felt like taking a shower and then getting out for the day. I got my car washed and then hung out at the bookstore for awhile. I was pleasantly surprised to run into a former customer from my FYJ days. She's doing well and it was so nice to hear about her personal growth since I've last heard from her. It continues to be such a great reminder that the place I created had such a positive impact in so many people's lives.

Later I went to my friend's house. As she fixed dinner, I simply hung out, drank wine, and shared my usual stories. We had a very enjoyable time as always, that is until...

She has a new WII. Is that from Nintendo? I think so. Anyway, it's a video game. I'm sure most people of this world know about and enjoy this game! But I don't. In my distant past, I'm sure I tried playing something at some point, but I'm simply not interested. Today, as my enthusiastic friend encouraged me to play her new game, all I ended up feeling was stressed out. I was supposed to be having fun and enjoying myself, but I didn't!

I played several games, but finally decided to stop. I liked playing the games in order to get the right answers. And at the level I was playing that was fairly easy. However, I quickly realized that although I enjoyed the challenge of trying to get the right answers, it was being timed that I didn't like. I just didn't enjoy feeling as though I had to race against the clock. I simply wanted to go at my own pace and get the right answer.

So, of course, how I was feeling then led me to self-reflect on how I like to do other things. As I've shared before, I don't like to be stressed out. In fact, it's rare that I do stress, simply because I don't like the feeling. So playing the video games today, and getting stressed out by them, gave me a lot to think about myself. In life, I like to feel as though I make the best decisions for myself. I'm deliberate in how I do almost everything. I like to feel as though I'm making the right choice, regardless of how long it takes to make it. At this point in my life, I no longer compare myself to anyone else, or compare how I live with how anyone else lives. I simply follow that which feels best for me. But if I'm feeling rushed or feeling as though I have to make a quick decision, I get stressed out!

Believe me, I do many things quickly. I talk fast. I walk fast. I definitely drive fast. And I do much of my work fast. But if there's something I have to do, and I don't necessarily know how to do it well, then I need time. And in order to get a good score in a video game, I don't have time!

Well, this certainly is no major topic, rather just today's interesting self-observation. I'm not stressed at this moment (the wine helped!) And I'm definitely not upset about anything either. It's actually been a pretty good day. I'm simply perfectly content to never play a video game again! : )

Thankfully, the weekend is not over yet. One more day to do something stress-free! Yeah!!