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Having gone through many transitions in my life, I am not at all surprised to be going through yet another one. I’m sure I am responsible for them. After all, life is a series of choices. I make many choices throughout each day… what to think, what to say, what to do, what to feel, etc. All of those choices create my life circumstances, which is the biggest reason I also choose to be empowered… so I can change my life if I want to!

I haven’t done much writing in quite awhile. There are a few reasons for that, but mainly because I haven’t spent much time self-reflecting. Although I live alone, and spend plenty of time by myself, when I’m on the computer or watching tv, I’m simply distracting myself from deliberately creating the life I want.

So as with most people, it’s usually hard times that stop me in my tracks and makes me look at my life and determine if it’s really how I want it to be.

For the most part, I have a fantastic life—better than it’s ever been actually. As my own person, I am happier than ever. I’ve lived chaos before, so the peace I now live is very much appreciated. (That aspect alone, makes life great!) And although I’ve had more money in the past than I do today, I have two great jobs I absolutely LOVE. First, I'm an Empowerment Coach. It brings me more joy than any job I have ever had. And secondly, by day, I am an Office Manager for a small construction company. It’s by no means glamorous, but I thoroughly enjoy every single day I am there. Things are run MY way, which is good for this control freak. My boss is absolutely wonderful and appreciates me more than any boss I have ever had. So while money is an area of improvement for me, I’m working on it while enjoying my way of receiving it. Also, I love where I live. I love my flexible life schedule. I love that I have raised a smart and beautiful daughter, who is soon to be married, and who I know will continue to have a great life. I have great friends, and making even more all the time. I feel very loved by my friends and enjoy all the time and fun I have when I’m with them.

On the more difficult side of my life, I’ve been taking care of my uncle on and off for several months. He gets very sick and needs me for blocks of time. Then he recovers a bit, and then a bit more, and is able to take care of himself again. Then the process starts all over… he gets sick, and then better, etc. At the moment, he’s home alone. He’s not as well as I’d like him to be, but he’s holding strong for the moment. During these times, I am grateful for the peace of mind that he’s ok. I’m afraid it won’t last long though, so I just try to focus on each day as it comes.

The other areas that could use some improvement include my money situation (as I mentioned) as well as an easier time in some of my relationships, both with some of my family members and in my personal relationship. My family situation definitely does not make me happy, and I have felt powerless over it for awhile now. But I’m dealing with it, and working on how to change how I feel about some things. It feels a bit harder, than say, if it were an issue with a friend, but I know the peace about it is still all within my power. And then there’s my personal relationship situation… This is not my main concern at the moment—mainly because it’s been a bit difficult for a bit too long. I know there are better times ahead, regardless whether I choose the same person I have been choosing or if I choose someone new. I’m going to let that situation be for now, and trust that in everything else I’ll be working on, that it will also work itself out. I’m not saying it’s not within my power. I simply don’t have the desire to focus on it at this time. (Maybe beginning at Mile 10 on this leg of the journey!)

So, this is where I am today. I have a plan to work on changing some things in my life. I’m going to make some new choices, create some intentions, carve out time to focus on them, and excitedly experience what I will be manifesting.

I’m planning on sharing this journey as a way to keep me on track. And although I’ve always shared a lot, there may be some things I share that I haven’t previously. It’s a little scary, but the purpose is to say what I need say about it. I know I can have everything exactly as I want it, and so I will!

All is well. Life is good. And I am grateful.