Always at peace

Yesterday I sent out my FYJ Newsletter. Even though I always get nice responses from people telling me how much they liked it, I often think about what more I can do for them. If people would only understand how much happier being empowered could make them…

Instead, I find myself wondering about the 3 out of 500 people who unsubscribed from my mailing list!

Last night as I was trying to fall asleep, I began thinking about why I do what I do (coaching that is). I LOVE coaching! I believe I have found my purpose—for this stage of my life anyway. I simply don’t want to do anything else. But sometimes I have to remind myself WHY I coach.

In my “former life” (prior to the year 2000 for me) I was quite unhappy—not all the time of course, but I would say that I was more often unhappy than I was happy. I simply didn’t understand life as much as I do today. And in that unhappiness, I not only attracted negative situations to my life, but I also behaved in a less than positive way. In other words, I could be really bitchy at times. Really!

For example, I remember arguing with people if I believed they cut in line ahead of me. I wouldn’t just get mad, but I would spend a good amount of time arguing with them about it. I just wouldn’t let it go. I simply didn’t have tolerance for people in those days, and easily got upset when someone was not doing what he/she was “supposed” to be doing.

Then I attracted a huge lesson to my life, which ultimately gave me an understanding of my previous behavior. Those were very harsh days for me and it was a time where I felt NO peace in my life at all.

Then came my life questions. And as I often explain, answers soon followed. I realized a lot about myself… my fears, my unhappiness, my disempowerment, and more. I believe all that prior life was necessary (for me) to understand what I do today.

And since the beginning of those realizations, I have been on this new journey I now live. Remembering what it’s like to not have peace in my life, it is now my personal mission to always be at peace. And so I am.

My daughter bought this bracelet (seen in the pic) for me about three years ago. It’s all scratched up these days, but I rarely take it off because it is probably my most favorite gift of all time. It’s not only meaningful because my daughter bought it for me, but because it greatly represents who I now am and how I now live.

This may be surprising to hear, but I am not here to save the world. Even though I help people find their own happiness, my purpose in life is not to make them happy. MY purpose is to be happy and be at peace myself. Coaching makes me happy. Coaching makes me feel alive. Coaching gives me peace.

So I can let those three unsubscribers go and wish them well. I am happy they know what they do and don’t want for themselves. That is what empowerment is actually. I am happy to offer what I do to whoever wants it, because it fills ME. And as long as I continue to live this way, I will always be at peace!