We are constantly asking for more in life. Even if we don’t realize that we are asking, we are. Our asking isn’t just as simple as saying, something like, “I want this...” That is only one way. Our asking comes in the form of thinking about what we want and don’t want, talking about what we want and don’t want, and feeling how we feel about what we want and don’t want. All of that energy we put out as a result of how we are feeling is actually bringing us our life experience. Whatever we are focused on brings us exactly that, even if it’s not what we consciously asked for. So when we become aware of this, we understand that we always get EXACTLY what we ask for.
If this is unclear, let me share a bit more what is going on with me at the moment.
Sixteen months ago I got a “job”. Since closing my store, I have been coaching. But since it hasn’t been a full time thing for me, I decided to get a job to pay my basic bills. It wasn’t a career move by any means. It was simply something I could do that would pay some bills.
My intention was to stay at this company for one year. In the meantime, I would work on my coaching business so I would eventually do it full-time. After all, I strongly believe we should only do what we love. And coaching/inspiring people to live an empowered life is what I love most.
Well, I got complacent in my lifestyle. As I mentioned in December's FYJ Newsletter, my home-life changed last year with my daughter moving out. I got comfortable in a new routine of going to work during the day, coaching after work and on weekends, and then doing whatever else I wanted to do the rest of the time. It’s been good, but that feeling of wanting to coach, teach or doing something related full-time has never left me. In fact, it’s a continuous feeling that sharing inspiration needs to be the biggest part of my life. But as I said, I got comfortable with my daily habit of working. It was just easy to go to work for a paycheck, and not worry about building any business or creating anything bigger for myself.
This past summer, as my one year anniversary at work approached, I started thinking more consciously about my original intent of only staying there a year. But I hadn’t done enough to really do anything about leaving the job. So I simply stayed. In the last several months I became less and less content with doing that job. It was simply too boring for me. I loved everyone I worked with though, so I ignored my feelings about being uncomfortable. I still felt uncomfortable, but ignored it. This is what I mean about wanting more, but not paying attention to what we’re asking for, regardless.
I was actually asking to live my life doing only that which I love. My energy was low when I went to work. My enthusiasm for what I was doing was even lower. I just did what I had to do at work and nothing more, even though I am capable of so much more. I focused on the other parts of my life to make it easier to ignore my unease at work, and used the excuse that I liked everyone at work so that I wouldn’t have to admit to myself that I wasn't really happy there.
But there was no doubt in my mind, when I allowed myself to think about it, I needed to move on.
A few weeks ago my company announced that they were doing cut backs, and that meant layoffs for my area. Now, I have not planned to NOT be working, so it’s not like I should have been happy about that news. But I was ecstatic! I felt like I was going to be free! Finally, I thought to myself, I can spend more time doing what I love! But wait… how am I really going to deal with this? I am not prepared for this change.
I KNOW that I am getting exactly what I was asking for. I wanted a change. I needed a change. And I asked for this change!
While everyone else in the company has been stressed and worried about their job, I found myself with more energy than I had had in months. I didn’t exactly volunteer to get laid off, but I told them that I would be fine with being the first one to go. So I was, and Friday was my last day.
It's good. Now, I am taking a new road on my journey. I have ideas of what I’m going to do, but don’t know how it will turn out exactly. I’m moving forward with confidence that all is well.
When I left my real job (my 14 year career in high tech) in 2003 to open a business, I had taken a class called “Creating the work you love” with Rick Jarow. In that class I got the courage to follow my guidance—the guidance within me telling me to move on. The teacher said something like, “If your guidance is asking you to do something more, why wouldn’t the Universe support you in getting it?” That statement felt so true, and has since always given me courage to go on with what I really want to do. I know that I will be supported and I know that I will always ok. I have experienced enough life transitions to know that I always land in a better place, and so I am not worried at all. In fact, I am excited!
This life is amazing. Although we always get what we ask for, sometimes we need to remind ourselves that we are exactly where we need to be in order to get it. There’s still much to do, and I am so happy to get started.
More to come… as always!
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